Warriors war; that’s what we do

Some people say your  “the momma bear”. Others call is the lioness protecting her cubs. I call it Jesus’ warrior bride covering those people she loves and calls her family. For that matter, this warrior bride can war at the drop of a hat.  Blessed be the Lord God who has taught my hands to war and my fingers to fight.  I love that verse. It’s who I AM-not what I do. I war.

I could be at work and be overtaken with the urge to pray. I’mma pray for a minute then get back to work. I would see something on line that breaks my heart. I excuse myself from my family for a minute and go into my prayer closet and pray until the burden is listed. I will raise up that hedge so that the serpent can slide on in and bite.

prayer and tears

The more I study prayer and deliverance, the more I pray and I am delivered! Russ Dizdar has awesome free mp3’s on his website Shatterthedarkness.com and they are awe sooooommmme. I’ve never felt so alive and engaged in shredding beyond recognition the enemies’ camps.

Remember that time the devil won???!!?!?!?!

Yeah, ME EITHER….It’s because he is ALREADY DEFEATED. JESUS conquered him at Calvary!!!! The cross of Christ stomped death, hell AND THE GRAVE.

the risen Christ

 Come on what are we so afraid of!!!!???? It’s time to engage people of the Living God. He is the GOD OF THE ANGEL ARMIES. And here is one of my favorites

HE LAUGHS AT HIS ENEMIES BECAUSE HE KNOWS HOW THEY END UP. (That is the Passionesta’s version).

People we’ve already won. Jesus paid the price, he did the hard part! All we really need to do is occupy the kingdom and hold it until He comes back. Jesus didn’t say it was gonna be biscuits’ covered with gravy every single day of your life. He said because they hate me (and Father God), they going to hate you! He also said be of good cheer, I have overcome the world (the world system).

Please stop crying bout your past and put your big girl panties on –lace up those boot straps, grab a weapon and stand your post.  No one was ever won for Jesus by a whinny snivelly defeated Christian.

What was that song? They will know we are Christians by our love by our love. Remember that one.

This is how I started the morning.  Psalms 68:1-4

Psa 68:1  To the chief Musician, A Psalm or Song of David. Let God arise, let his enemies be scattered: let them also that hate him flee before him.

Psa 68:2  As smoke is driven away, so drive them away: as wax melteth before the fire, so let the wicked perish at the presence of God.

Psa 68:3  But let the righteous be glad; let them rejoice before God: yea, let them exceedingly rejoice.

Psa 68:4  Sing unto God, sing praises to his name: extol him that rideth upon the heavens by his name JAH, and rejoice before him. (KJV)

 

Lets try the amplified –

 

The God of Sinai and of the Sanctuary

To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David. A Song.

68 Let God arise, and His enemies be scattered;
Let those who hate Him flee before Him.

As smoke is driven away, so drive them away;
As wax melts before the fire,
So let the wicked and guilty perish before [the presence of] God.

But let the righteous be glad; let them be in good spirits before God,
Yes, let them rejoice with delight.

Sing to God, sing praises to His name;
Lift up a song for Him who rides through the desert—
His name is the Lord—be in good spirits before Him.

Does this sound like a Being that is gonna bow down to someone else?

Of course not. He knows the endgame from the beginning. And people, let me tell you–WE WIN!

Saddle up partners! We have to live life on life’s terms. BUT WE HAVE A GOD WHO WINS.–therefore, we win!

Until next time-Yippy Ki AYE!

 

 

 

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The time between times

I don’t know if I’ve said this or not yet, but we recently made the cross country boogie from Baltimore, Maryland. We loaded up the soccer mom van, two cats and all we could cram in and headed to Texas. 5 days later, and we ended up in a beautiful town called Montgomery Texas which is up the I-45 from Houston.

God moved in our favor and 24 hours after we got here we found an apartment with a great view of Lake Conroe and a wonderful pool. The apartment was the right size for us and was exactly within our budget.

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Our friends that were here made sure we had a fridge full of food and some necessities to get us started.

Two and a half months later and we are settled in.  My thirteen year old daughter is doing the best she’s EVER done in school; she is involved in our youth group at church and has friends all over the area. She was one of the reasons that we moved in the first place; that she found her own way makes me fill up and thank my Maker over and over again!

Me, I was happy. I worked in the inner city of Baltimore, Maryland with the worst of the worst when it came to addicts. I put in as much time as I could, getting dirty on the front lines and basking in the glory of helping those had given up long ago. Oh it was bloody and messy and I was happier than words could ever express.

Baltimore-City-aerial-view

And then the call came. No not a phone call! Silly wabbit! God, the Big Cheese, The Man upstairs, Abba, JC,  Jesus on the main line …tell him what you want, you know GOD.  Many things fell into place and after a year of intense prayer, preparation, research and very little savings we were on the road.

AND IT IS SO VERY DIFFERENT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s been quiet and restful and peaceful and I keep looking around and wondering what the heck is wrong? This is not my life. There are no people to help place the pieces back together, no fussing, fights, aggression, name calling and general jimmy jackery.

In talking this over with my Pastor, I came to realize that this is the calm before the storm; OR, the storm of storms that will come in the future. I have been given this time to rest spirit, soul and body. Wow when I think about the love that God has toward me, He has given me a time of rest. Wow! Cool! Wow (did I say that already?) ooooo. Good!

NOW WHAT? There is only so much time to rest and take care of you and study for school and all.

What are we supposed to do in the time between times?

 I can tell you that I’ve been bored since forever ago. So what have I done with this time? I’ve read some new books that I wouldn’t normally read. Signed up for some classes, too, so I could finish my degree. I’ve prayed and prayed and prayed and tried to get a job and cried and prayed and stayed and restarted a business only to put it down again because it wasn’t time for that.

Okay so I’m NOT the example you should follow. Get in the Word and find out what, specifically is right for you to be doing. AND For heaven’s sake, rest too AND get your house in order.

rest

Make sure that before things heat up again that you have a routine in place for yourself, your family and whatever else you are juggling in your life during your quiet time.

I really don’t take to sitting idly by while there are people out there who are suffering. So I have been setting the stage to start in my chosen field again, but slowly this time. I will make sure that I have the right balance of God, family and all the other things in my life.  I didn’t have that before.

If you find yourself in the time between times, PRAY. Ask for Wisdom and direction. Ask what you should be doing during this time. There is always a plan for our lives.  Jesus promised that our Father would send another comforter.

SJ-HolySpirit

The Holy Spirit has been given to lead us into all things that pertain to life and godliness. He is our helper and our teacher.

No matter what…rest…for He alone knows when you will get another chance.

Write and let us know how you’ve dealt with your time between assignments or as I call it the time between times. Until next time, in all you do, do it with Passion.

All I can do is cry

prayer and tears

Sometimes, all I can do is cry!

Something touches my heart or I am praying for others and no words can express what I am thinking and feeling. I know that my God honors that. I know that no matter what the prayer, He hears me. Psalms 56:8 states that He knows all of our wonderings; they are in His book along with every tear I’ve cried.

I am okay with the waterworks now. It wasn’t always like that. I was ashamed to cry in front of others, especially at church. Over the years, as I learned to yield to the promptings of the Holy Spirit, it became easier. I know that He was just tenderizing my heart in His presence; replacing the heart that had become jaded in my years of drug addiction and living on the street.  He gently and purposefully chipped away at me until I was sensitive to some of the things that touched HIS HEART!

And now, sometimes, all I can do is cry!

Like tonight as I looked over the squares I had drawn in my notebook. Each filled with a specific prayer request that needed to be lifted up to the Lord. Private things, personal things, some ministry needs among other things. I became overwhelmed and the tears covered the page. I covered those boxes with my hands and just poured out. There were no words, there was not a coherent syllable was uttered for quite some time. But my Father knew what each needed and I believe that He used what I could offer to move in each circumstance.

Simply because He is God and He honors our tears.

 

weeping may endure

One of my favorite scriptures is Psalms 30:5 ~~ Weeping may endure for the night BUT joy comes in the morning. No matter what we face in our darkest times, no matter the battle, the struggle or hopelessness, JOY will BREAK THROUGH with the LIGHT or the SON! No matter how you say it, the light brings relief from all of the darkness that we face.

We are not without weapons: tears, prayers, praise, worship, dancing, singing, speaking in tongues, declaring the Word of God, thanksgiving…WHATEVER IT IS USE IT!

Like with me, sometimes all I can do is cry.

Until next post, be Passionate in all you do!

Just words on a Page???

pen and paper

Words Words everywhere and nothing I can say

Sometimes it seems like I could write for days and never get it everything out of my brain. Other days, it’s like trying to slay a dragon with a toothpick. I love words and I love to write. I also love to encourage people because I know that words contain power! They can build us up or rip us into shreds. It depends on the speaker and the intent.

Thus, the reason for this blog and this post today. I BELIEVE in people. I want to wrap you up in the comfort of my words and my positive thoughts and blessing to each one of you. We all have rough days when we look in the mirror and say to ourselves, “what’s the point? I’m going back to bed.”  BUT listen to what I’m saying. In reality, several of us feel that way!  It’s the discipline of knowing that our families, friends, employers, clients etc depend on us pulling ourselves together, smearing the war paint on our faces and rolling out the door.

Trust me –there is ALWAYS coffee in my hand. It is a valued substance that makes the morning perfect. I sit at the computer and I say to myself, “I’m okay, let’s help someone”. No, it’s not the coffee making me feel that way. Nice try!  It is the inherent belief that as a community of people, we should encourage one another. We shouldn’t be so self absorbed that we can’t say, Dude, it’s gonna be okay.  Just keep moving forward.

Despite whatever is or isn’t working for me today, Life is good. I don’t have it as easy as I would like at this point in my life, but it’s not as bad as others who are struggling right now. I have the grace of the Lord to be able to look back at where I started this love and passion walk 13 years ago and say honestly that there has been progress! Bless God!  It’s been the steady –try, succeed, try, do a face plant, cry, pray, get up walk. Then walk and walk and fall and fall, oh here I go off the cliff or into obscurity and then moving on again and again.  It’s been a loving God, a patient savior who paid the price for ALL of my mistakes, the gentle guidance of the Holy Spirit and then ongoing journey.

To think you are NOT going to stumble or make mistakes is ludicrous! It’s insane. Give yourself a break right now. Take a time out RIGHT NOW wherever you are on this journey. If you are on track, take a minute to say thank you! If it seems like you somehow slipped to the wayside, stop, breath and ask for direction. You can even analyze where you went wrong, if you can quiet your mind. Don’t allow yourself any time for self-loathing or self-hatred for getting it wrong or missing the mark. Do we beat the babies when they are learning how to walk and they stumble and fall? That’s just crazy right? So why do we beat ourselves and others up for making simple mistakes in the learning processes of life?

Life is a journey of learning what works for us and what doesn’t!  We have a loving Father, who sacrificed His own for a world gone wacky.  His own never once put conditions out there for us before he did for us what we couldn’t do for ourselves. We ARE LOVED unconditionally from before time even started through eternity in future.  That is so very powerful.  So really, what right do we have to hate ourselves? We need to get up and get moving. Shake off the dust and get moving. If you need a minute to regroup, then regroup. Breathe, but get started again.

I’ve said this before, if you are lonely and need a friend, find someone else and be a friend to them. If you are going through financial hardship, sow a seed to someone who is in worse shape than you. How many times have you found yourself needing help moving or rearranging the furniture, no one takes your calls or commits to help? Have you been available for people who were moving or needed help?  Don’t just go to someone’s house for the cook out or the football game, go when they need help.

Then, you will begin to see answers to the things that are needed in your life. Sow a seed, water it and let God bring the harvest. It’s a simple principle that every person that has gardened can tell you. If you never plant a seed you will absolutely never get a harvest.  NEVER. There is a great miracle in every seed. It has the ability to reproduce that which it has come from. Wow chew on that one!

I’m just saying, give God something to work with. Say a prayer, make a positive declaration, be a friend, be a giver of yourself and your substance, love the unlovable, help those that are too shell shocked to help themselves. Smile, laugh out loud! Love the hand that you have been dealt. If it’s not a good hand, throw some cards in and get some new cards. OR my favorite is to bluff until I win. Keep a straight face in times of adversity. Choose those moments of intense pain, to say thank you Father that I am not alone nor do I face this challenge and pain without a source of inspiration!

Remember that this too shall pass!

Love and hugs kiddos!

 

Are we too spooky?

  scared girls

Have you ever heard someone say that a person is so spiritually minded that they are no earthly good?

What does that look like to you? Is it the person who takes everything in life so literally? What if Jesus came down in a flaming ball of glory and threw a mountain into the sea, would they have some spiritual implication that explains away the reality that it really happened?

I can hear it now in my head.

“Well, you know Jesus and the fire says you know like he is righteously angry and you know the glory well it’s just so significant to the days and times. And that mountain brother, well that’s this sin or that situation or Sister Suzie from the mountain dweller tribe…you know she’s a bad influence on this and that. And Jesus just throwing it is like you know throw it away swoosh, just go mountain…you are so bad.”

Here is the nice fluffy Jesus is Love interpretation

“Well Jesus is love and love is a consuming fire burning away everything. The glory ball is the presence of the Holy Spirit doing the work in us. The mountain represents our own mind and how we think it’s too big for God to do and whoooooshhh He throws it away”

Then I think, HUH?

Do we get so spiritual that anything and everything is a sign for this or that? If you spend the time trying to figure out what they are saying and you come up with an interpretation, they just come back with something that is irrelevant to the whole conversation that you started with.

Confusing? YES IT IS!

That’s way I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions lately. We want answers and trust me we can get the right answers. Why then do we hide behind the mumbo jumbo of what is happening? I love people. I don’t want to see them hurt unnecessarily, but at the same time the group that is supposed to be helping is driving those hurting away!

When was the last time you invited someone to come to church and they just gave you some excuse that you knew wasn’t true. It’s because the super spirituals have driven people away by the thousands. And the only church growth is just the saved moving from church to church when they hear a part of the Word they don’t like. Where is our relevance to the days and times?

Trust me, I can look in the mirror and on certain days I see flaky, nutty and fruity. So I am talking to myself as well as asking questions at the same time because of the “church folk” I’m encountering in conversations and on blogs etc. I’m not pointing figures at anyone but myself, but I want change. I want to bring every hurting, addicted, lonely, broken and everything in-between to the reality of a savior that actually saves sets free and delivers. Even the church folk that feel they have all the answers but really didn’t know the original questions.

Here’s the next logical step for me in my search.

salt and light

Where are those that are the salty dogs? Where are the light bringers? Where are the true prophets of God, where are the teachers, the evangelists, the body of Christ that is supposed to be holding the ground UNTIL Jesus’ returns. Where are the prayer warriors, the ones who cry out day and night for the healing and miracles that are supposed to be following every one of us? Where are the watchers on the wall crying out and sounding the alarm?

W H E R E    ARE    THEY?

We are at the end of this road and the end of an age and it’s time to pick a side and become relevant. Let’s make people thirsty for more of the One we Love with everything we have in us! Let’s become that voice crying out for people to come drink from the living water and never thirst again. Let’s kill ourselves and our own agendas and in the process let the Christ who lives in us shine for a dying world.

Let’s start praying some dangerous prayers. A very dear friend and mentor of mine has been seeding this in our hearts for weeks. My prayer has become God; don’t let me sleep until I seek you for more. God, I want your face! I want that fellowship. I want to know you and be totally broken by what breaks you. Those prayers. That hunger. This desperation.

Life has NOT been easy since I started praying this. I have seen miracles in my life and my kiddo’s life. Now she is starting to say, God scare me so badly with you that I can no longer be the same kiddo. She is fighting her own battles of identity too! But we are praying and I don’t think we are going to be disappointed.

I don’t want to be so freaking spiritual that I can’t help a guy get a cup of coffee or a happy meal. I don’t want the lady that approaches me out of nowhere to feel like my time is too valuable for her. I don’t want the teenager at the pool to think that I’m not trying to understand why she dyed her hair green. I want to make a difference because Jesus made a difference in me.

Whatdaya say? Feedback please. Am I alone in this quest of desperation?consuming fire

Until next time my passion peeps!

Let me encourage you

 be encouaraged

I want to start off today by simply thanking my friends and family for being my biggest supporters. Their words of encouragement have been sparks that rekindled a fire burning too low. I can feel their love and prayers when I’m staring at the computer at 3:30 am wondering how I can walk someone through what I’ve just gone through.

To say that I’ve been on a journey for the past few weeks is an understatement. I’ve been on a life changing quest of trust! Everything that I know and believe has been tested. The good news is… da da daaaaaa…I’m still standing, still breathing and still living life with passion AND flair! (Flair is important. No matter what you have going on in your life, you want to always look good for the cameras!)

It has been one of the biggest emotional roller coasters I’ve been on in years. Every time I thought I wasn’t going to make it, I would get a call, a text or just that reassuring knowing on the inside that told me it WILL be okay. Steady the course, Stand still and no matter what HOLD THE LINE!  Sure I could’ve said it’s too much for one single person.

We all have those moments when life is too overwhelming. But ask yourself, do you have any other choice but to stick and stay?  Honestly, there is no real place for me to run and hide. I have children and friends that are counting on me to make it work. I have responsibilities, just like you. It’s impossible to just “check out” no matter what we feel like.

That’s why I wanted to take this little blog spot and say, be encouraged. The battle is not lost. It may be a fierce warfare right now, but you will make it through. One of my favorite scriptures is Psalms 30:5

For his anger endures but a moment; in his favor is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning!

Can I get a whoot whoot! Can you hold on just a little while longer?

sunrise in forest

Hold on friend, the morning is coming! And with that come the freshness and joy of a beautiful sunrise on our despair.  I remember saying to myself, that IF I could make it until the morning everything would be okay. It’s the comfort of the sun rising and utterly abolishing the darkness that makes us have that hope for the new day. Yes the battle is long, and the struggle intense but you can make it.

Make it personal. Where I’m sitting right now, the sun will explode on the scene in about 3 hours. I can hold on for 3 hours. I can do anything for 3 hours. So can you. No matter how it looks right now, in your right here, you can hold on. You can decide that no matter what it looks like, you can and you will continue.

If finances are a struggle, you’re not alone. If your relationship(s) are in distress, step back, take a breath and reengage. Do you ever wonder if you are making the right choices for your family? Hey, we all have doubts at one time or another. You are not a failure if you ask questions. The journey is not over and there is time for course corrections if needed. The key is to stop looking at how far you have to go and look at how far you have come!

This too shall pass. This simple 5 word phrase has carried me through some of the darkest times of my life. What we are going through now will not be the case tomorrow. As soon as we triumph over this area, trust me, another area will rise up. Please don’t forget the lessons you’ve learned from today’s battle. Remember that you’ve made it through tough times and that tough times will be there in the future.

Be encouraged. You’re doing fine. If you need help or you need to vent ~~ ASK! Hello! Ask! I know that asking may be a foreign concept…but it is the truth. People can’t read our minds. We oftentimes have to tell them what we need. So don’t isolate…reach out!

Leave a comment I’d love to pray with you, cry with you, encourage you…whatever you need! Be encouraged, be blessed and be strengthened!

Words Words everywhere…

What we say matters.

I’ve heard this phrase my entire life. Words are containers for the good or the bad. What do you think?

Please feel free to add your comments.

So you have voted on the blog and have reviewed what other people thought. Now let’s look at it this way.

 

How does this picture make you feel when you look at it?

abusive words alot

Can you identify in any way with the young lady in the picture? Ask yourself,” what do I think when I look at this? “ Does it trigger something in me, either for the good or bad?

Let’s take a look at this picture of a little boy.

abusive words

I want you to take a minute and process this. When you were in grade school, were you bullied? Did a teacher, a friend, a bully or a

family member make similar statements or declarations of your life?   Were you the bully that picked on other kids? If so do you ever think about that
person. Do you ever want to go back and make amends? I say this because I remember being so mean and ugly to a young girl I went to
grade school with. I was mean as a snake to her and now I think about it when I look at my own 13 year old who struggles with her own style and identity.

She’s been bullied. She has been told she is ugly, fat, weird, strange, she’s been called a lot of things. I used to demand that she tell me. And she did. For a time.
But when I would cry and hold her, she would say, “mom it bothers you way more than me, stop crying. I’ll be okay.” My precious bullied child was worried that I was crying.

No regard for herself.

Eventually, when I would ask what was wrong, she’d say oh nothing. I’m just bored. I’ve learned that those 3 words mean that her world is not the best today and
I try harder to show my love and encouragement in any way I can. Friends, as I’ve shared regularly in this blog, I’m very passionate. Trust me, I’ve
talked to the police at the school. (Yes Baltimore County, Maryland schools have officers assigned to the schools- but that is another blog or series of blogs left for
another day.) I’ve talked to teachers, principles, vice principles, special ed, other parents and at times the flipping janitor if I thought they could help protect my
kiddo.
Same response…well she has to tell us who the kids are and then we can stop it… Again, blog series, many many many blogs trying to understand how a child who
is already struggling, targeted as the odd kid, and trying to walk around unseen is going to point out the bully is beyond my comprehension.
Get the picture of the negative word spoken at, to, around, or about someone. Do you think if you could go back an answer the poll your answers would be
different?
Here is our next spin…are you still with me?

creative words

What if someone spoke the following list of words over you every morning when you got ready to go about your day?
What if before you went to bed, you read the list to yourself making it personal for you? Do you think it would have any impact on your life in any way?

Take a minute to read the words and apply them to you personally. Hey while your at it, add some words that apply to you that are NOT listed here.
Hey why don’t you go ahead and write your own list. Who knows you better than you do. As I’ve stated before, no one can do you better than you can. ~~

Do you feel any difference? I know I feel a lot better about being me just reading it.

I know you are asking yourself, “What IS this woman’s point It’s to bring focus on how important words are to me and to you.

It’s just an exercise to teach us all that even the words that we don’t realize we may say matter! I’m human. I know what it means to hurt by someone’s criticisms

and initial judgments. I also know what a kind word spoken at the right time can do for my perspective.

So how about it? What do you think about words now!
Oh, by the way, if no one’s told you today…

you rock